I visit because I think you have great ideas, though sometimes they cause me anxiety cuz I start freaking out about my own stuff. I know that's not your intention - it's to help and to get out your own views about things. And I think you are adorable and write well. Ideas - hmm...I will think about it.
Dani, can you tell me exactly what causes your anxiety?
Well, I guess it's because I see your clean home and I worry about my failure to keep mine as clean (or my assumed failure) And I am afraid of criticism and somebody telling me my home is unclean and gross and cluttered. I try to keep it clean but it's also a very old and cheap apt (I cant afford more in NYC). And then I get embarrassed that I forget about things like bathmats and rugs and stuff and I'm like wait how do I clean those. And then I just doubt all my abilities. Yeah im crazy.
My house is not always clean! You remember the post with the before and after photos? 75% of the time it looks like the before. The only reason we live in such a nice apt is my husband gets a living allowance that allows us to do so. Don't be embarrassed about bath mats and whatnot. That's why I did the "infrequently cleaned" post! Because nearly EVERYONE forgets those things and, if they think about it, have no idea how to clean them.What can I do to alleviate some anxiety?
Last night I took the furry cover I keep on the toilet seat cover and washed it in color Woolite. I don't want to waste money having to use the machines in the basement for each item (I dont want to wash them all together). I don't know how you would alleviate my anxiety. I mean I showed you pics of underneath my sink, and you said it was cluttered, and while I guess it is, I am scared to show you even more photos. I hate to think of myself as cluttered, I try and throw out or give away as much as possible. I live in a studio apartment and suck at space management. Like I saw that pic of Franklin under the sink and I was like OMG I would never let my kid under THIS sink (if he/she could fit anyway with all the crap) I want to be proud of my place. It sucks. I feel like I should be spotless, because I only have myself, I dont have anyone else in the apt 95% of the time. No husband, no baby, no friends even (rarely). Maybe I am too hard on myself I don't know. It's one reason I rarely experiment with cooking or baking, because I am scared to get things dirty. I have been better about that, but it's not easy for me to relax about my home. Everyone in my family has people who clean for them.
When Stefan and I lived alone our apt was SO messy because we were never there! We worked full-time and when we got home the LAST thing we felt like doing was cleaning.The sink Franklin was under is my guest sink! It never gets used so all that's under there is my waxing kit and a couple of things of sunscreen. I'll take a photo after a typical dinner and then step by step cleaning photos...Hmm... that's an idea. Instead of grand before and after photos would step by step photos help alleviate some of the anxiety? So you can see some of the cleaning I have to do? And, for the record, we live in a fairly good sized apt and I SUCK at space management as well! :) I'm a pack rat by genetics. There's a fine line in my family between pack rat and hoarding...
maybe step by step would help. I also wish I wasnt so lazy and had a routine of cleaning and kind of like a checklist of what I had to clean and how to do it.
Also my drawers are embarrassing. I have too many things and not enough places to put them! (like my pajamas, tights, bras, socks, and tank tops are all shoved into one drawer)
How about budgeting money - thats another issue I have.
Oohh Budgeting is a favorite of mine! I'd LOVE to do a blog on that.
ooh good because i think in place of therapy i have been spending incessantly.